i'm just like a daily reporter of my life. reflecting about my past and things i do. i do think but not as in depth. but still i can't express myself well. EQ low?! probably.
it's gonna the end of the third week of attachment. 3 more weeks and we gonna kiss our ass off working and get back to our books. i use to hate my lecture notes so much so that at the look of it makes me boils. but now i truly miss all those colourful highlighted notes. in school attending lesson and my lovely day-dreaming and pass my day days~! i miss school.
have been lazy to blog. getting more and more tired as days goes by. my body can't take it any longer. i really need a break. it's been 20days since i last had a rest. my body is breaking apart. and panda eyes are appearing. first time ever, i see hua having panda eyes. and it's ugly. sigh sigh.
tues. out of my dunch-know-from-where urge. i went for a haircut at the previous salon i went. and gosh. disaster. i had a super duper hard time maintaining my hair. suck sucks. why the hell i go and cut my fringe. suck. it's hell ugly. it makes me look hell stupid. and i'm hell fat. hell! wth. arhhh. shit me shit me shit me. gain weights again. why why why. can't i just resist that temptation. damn hua damn hua damn hua. she's an idiotic fat bitch. she just eat eat eat and still eat. =(
my supervisor finally graded my log book. and all that she gave was a B. both conduct and performance. it's like. wth~! i've been puting in efforts and everything. and i was only deserve a B. sigh. so what's the point of working hard. i'm just gonna slack. it's like who cares. i'm sad and demoralise by her grading. thanks' to my demanding and high expetition. i hate it when i strive so hard but i didn't see any results. sigh. why this bad point just won't go away. others may see my results as good. but i really feel sad that it's not what i expecting. i hope it won't affect anyone. i wasn't trying to be offensive or anything. but hais. why shld one compare. it's just so... stop it hua. enough! hua you shld just stop comparing with her. sobx. 3.9. when can i hit that point. =(
why am i making my life so miserable. be it happy be it sad. it's still a day. so why am i still so negative. perhaps being an optimis is really hard for me. i'm just not born one. it's either i hide my feels and be crazy. or i'll screw everything and find faults with everyone. yeah. i'm nasty evil selfish idiotic freak. this type of pple like me shld nt exist. it's a harm to the world and everything else. a waste of resources and food. oh mine. arhhh~
meet up with my classmates. finally they're discussing about FYP. and here's where my head goes big. grouping. sigh sigh. i have a hell loads of queries.
i miss honeys. i miss meeting tam. i miss chatting with lin. i miss my loves bud cha. i miss them all. i'm awaiting for wed to come. miss ya guys so much!
